Mom Is On My Mind

Wow, two blogs in one day. I must be feeling ill. LOL.

I found this terrific song called Address in the Stars and I instantly thought about my mom and how it would make such a great song for a video about her. I think about her every day and for some reason as of late I have been thinking about her a lot and seem to miss her more now than ever. Maybe it is because of the many stresses in my life right at the moment.

I realized right before she died that you should not take advantage of the people in your life because before you know it they may be gone. I have learned that you should not sweat the little things in life, there are way more important things than who said what about who. There are many things that I wanted to say to her, but never did, and now I wish that I would have. I kind of think I put a wall up about her illness, not wanting to be too emtional for her. Lord knows, she could cry. Unfortunately, I think I have the same trait. Geez, I even cry at Hallmark commercials.

If I could say one thing to her now it would be to tell her that I miss her every day and what she meant to me in my life and no matter what dramas we were going through, and at times there were many, that I always loved her and never once thought what it would be like when she was gone, that it would be this painful. She taught me that there are many struggles in life and that nothing is so bad that it won't get better. I wish I had some of that better right now. (Sigh). She taught me that material possesions are not as important as the love of your family. It's strange... something will be going on in my life, (what's new?), something about work, or I will read something and I think to myself, "I should call mom," or, "I haven't talked to mom in a while," but I can't call her. That's one of the things that I took for granted, that I was able to just pick up a phone and she was there.

She will forever be in my heart until the day I die, and this will definitely not be the last blog about my mom and definitely not the last video. My grandchildren will grow up knowing her, knowing all about her, and hopefully they will pass that on to their children long after I am gone. Ha, I remember telling my father-in-law right before he passed that he should tell them "upstairs" what a good person I was and ask them to give me a free pass. I like to think that there has got to be something better than this, the life we have now, where all our loved ones are happy, not suffering, and together.

So here is the video that I made. Some lyrics:
"Without you here with me,
I don't know what to do.
I'd give anything
Just to talk to you
Oh it breaks my heart..."

I hope you like the video and I do love comments on my Blogger (hint, hing). Until next time....